14 Temmuz 2014 Pazartesi

Parallel Universes



Don’t be fooled by this very arrogant title.  Obviously this will not be scientific article on parallel universes or quantum mechanics for that matter.  And I will drag it down many roads until we get to those titles.  But those will be necessary roads according to my opinion.  You may read the whole blog as a joke, as a story or you can read each article separately as you wish.

1- Incubus (Sleep paralysis)

I have had the incubus incidents since I was a kid.  My mom and sister always knew that they should wake me up when I start making weird noises in my sleep.  The incident shortly is; you think you are awake but you are not.  So you try to move or say something but you cannot. I was kind of afraid of this subject so although I love to research vetting I am curious of I never dogged into this matter.

I woke up in the middle of the night.  I looked around and actually saw the room I was sleeping in. I could hear the TV if it was on, see other people moving a bit slower than usual. And in addition to this I would see some other things, sometimes unusual objects, beings of some kind. The surrounding would be a little cloudy or blur.  When I decided to try to get up I wouldn't be able to.  So at that moment my view would change as well.  I would realize I wasn't awake and start to get confused.  I tried to wake up instead of looking around and wondering.  This would repeat itself for a few times and finally I would wake up disoriented and worried.  I would be scared that it would happen again so I wouldn't go to sleep right away.  And right before I would fall asleep again this biggest fear of mine would wonder around my mind...

After years of this I kind of got used to it.  I found out that it is a common thing.  At least I wasn’t alone.  They told it different though, they said a heavy being would choke them.  But that was probably only because of traditional stories told and how it got into people’s minds.  Nothing was really choking you.

Other than the incubus incidents I did of course make little experiments with sleep, like astral projection for example.  I did succeed one night after trying for a long time.  I made my body go to sleep and my mind was still awake.  So I slowly rose from the bed and started ascending.  It was a very familiar feeling, as if I had done it before. This time it was more conscious.  After ascending a little I looked forward and saw the white ceiling in front of me.  I looked to my left and saw a book on the top shelf.  This thought just made me so afraid, realizing I was actually out of my body I fall back down into it.

This way I realized that dreaming was just an unconscious type of astral projection.
This experience is still not my illumination about incubus.  After a while my life got so complicated that I forgot about astral projection, it was even hard for me to meditate.

Time passed, incubus didn't.
My ideas about dreams changed, my ideas about parallel universe and quantum theory were formed, changed... I used to look at all life through a spiritual point of view.  The thought that everything had a little particle of god in it turned into a Higgs particle.

When I was young my grandmother would pray to god and make me pray too.  No matter how hard I prayed nothing changed.  In time I found the idea of reincarnation and cosmic consciousness.  Then it all was sucked in by a black hole.  I woke up one morning as an atheist.  After that moment spiritualism was no longer the search for god but for me.  Something though, did not lose their meanings in this process but just changed in a way.  Dreams weren't astral projection experiences but interaction with parallel universes for me. Dejavu was not from past lives, but from parallel lives.  The things I would see half-awake were no other beings just inter parallel travelers like me.
In time incubus occurred less frequent.  But all of a sudden they started happening 3-4 times a month.  So I finally decided to research on this matter and found out that it was a simple sleep paralysis.  It was simply just a sleep disorder that had been called with many names in different culture and always associated with demons and so on.
When you cannot get goodnight sleeps, or are disturbed by something, although your body is sleepy your mind somehow wakes up. Sleep paralysis is the crisis in between.  Sleeping or awake?

I do have the feeling of a dream going on during the day sometimes.  I do have a confusion of reality sometimes.  Am I dreaming or am I awake?



During my last sleep paralysis episode I tried to be more reasonable.  I was aware that I was still sleeping. I tried to turn on the light near me I couldn't. I had a rubber band around my arm from the dream before so when I felt the rubber band I knew I was definitely sleeping.  I tried to wake up a few times but when I realized I couldn't I decide to use it to my advantage.  I began ascending from my bed.  Slowly went through the closed door and outside to the corridor.  I didn't stop there and went outside my main door.  When I felt the breeze outside and saw a dark endless night in front of me, I got scared again. And quickly went back to my body.  Then I woke up, for real....  

LEAPOUT



Don’T Hold bAck!
All oF a suDden you will gEt iT!

We neVer cOme Across sOmeThing tHat wE aRe not Ready tO undErstaNd.

We NeVer meEt tHe perSon we Are nOt reAdy to lOve.

So You wiLl have tO looK at thAt perSon for a While.

sOme of You lonGer thAn otheRs.
SomE oF you shorter Than otHers.

JumP
It is time
The gRound yOu sTAnd on anD yoU think is sTeady is nOt!
It Is shakIng!
jUmp!
TheRe is No otheR waY!

Who accepts you where you stand are confused!
This is not really where you stand
You are a visitor
Just passing
You can’T stAnd anyMore!
You hAve tO jumP!

Just Like iN youR drEam
JUmp!

ThIs is PerfeCt foR You!